Blog Post 7

After my three week summer session in Brown University, I feel like something is missing in my heart. I miss all my friends that i've met there, and I sadly know that even though we all say that "we have to see each other and meet up some day", it won't happen. I am almost 100 % sure that I will never ever see them again. It is sad, but it is reality, and reality sucks. It brought up a thought that I've been thinking about. Would you rather never say hello and meet people, or would you rather have really hard goodbyes. I've been thinking about it for so long, but being such an emotional person, the goodbyes are really really hard, and even though I've left camp for a while already, I just can't stop missing my friends, and everything I see brings back the good or bad memories that I had in camp. I'm in California with my cousins right now, and I went to Great America today. I had a lot of fun with her, but I just couldn't stop imagining how much more happier I would be if I were with the friends in camp. The goodbyes were hard, and the aftermath of leaving was unbearable too. I couldn't stop my tears when I got onto the bus, leaving campus; I couldn't stop crying when I left my friends. However, I also can't imagine how life would be like in camp if I didn't make any friends and just chose to not talk to anyone. I would be bored and sad the entire time, even though I wouldn't suffer from what I'm going through right now. I still can't make a decision on which one I would rather choose. Be a sad loner during camp and not care about leaving, or a sociable person but be sad and depressed after camp?