Blog Post 10

It is the last week of summer, and I am very ambivalent about whether or not I want school to start. Yes, I miss my friends. Yes, I am rather bored at home sometimes. However, I haven't finished my summer AP assignments, and I also feel like I will really become a junior once school starts. I can't wait to graduate, but the process of applying for college scares me so much. During the summer program in Brown, I've truly understood that even though I am in a much better situation than many others trying to apply to American colleges, I also know that there are many more that are in better situations than I am. I know how badly I want to go to college and leave this place already, but I also know that the road is going to be very harsh, and I am not sure if I am prepared for it yet. I know and I am grateful for all the things I have materialistically, but in order to really succeed, there is still a long path to go down, and now, I can see the first 1 kilometer mark of the full 10 kilometer path, but I also see the forests and the mountains awaiting for me to conquer. No matter how much I don't want to face the hard facts, facts are still facts, and I can't run away from the road that I will have to go down.